The being level · 9 of 24

Who you think you are

Notice the difference between yourself and your account of yourself.

Two levels, and only one of them grows

My Big TOE splits a person in two. The intellectual level is what you think — your assessments, your justifications, and the image you hold of yourself and the world. The being level is described as the authentic total you, without the usual overlay of conveniently invented image.

Growth happens only in the second one. Knowledge on its own, the material says, cannot raise the quality of a consciousness. Campbell's own version in conversation is harder: if it never makes it to the being level, it is just so much theory and talk and good ideas.

He gives a test that takes no effort to apply. When you work from the being level, you help the old lady because she needs help. You do not think about anything else. You just do it. Any deliberation about how it looks, or what it says about you, is happening somewhere else.

Two things worth holding onto. The intellect is not the villain — the material is careful that fear and ego are the cause, and the intellect is merely what fear has recruited. And the split is not permanent: the two levels only exist as separate things inside a consciousness that is afraid. Remove the fear and they become one.

So this is not an exercise in silencing your mind. It is an exercise in noticing which of the two is currently talking.

Before you start

  • Lighten up. Do not be intense or serious about this.
  • Sit somewhere comfortable and quiet where you will not be disturbed. A chair is fine. He does not specify anything beyond that.
  • Close your eyes.
  • Pick a time when you are not already churning. First thing on waking or last thing before sleep tend to work; straight after a big meal, or while you are angry about something, tend not to.
How long

Campbell’s own instruction is twenty minutes, twice a day. The shorter lengths early on are ours, not his — starting at twenty is how most people stop after a week.

The two buttons during a sit

Campbell’s mantra is not a fixed thing you repeat for twenty minutes. Its size is a dial, and you move it during the sit against how much thinking is going on. His instruction is symmetrical: if intruding thoughts constantly stream into your awareness, give the mantra a more active form; as thoughts disappear and do not return, decrease the complexity.

Busier
Your mind keeps wandering off. Give it more to hold, so there is less room for anything else. At the busiest: fill your mind with the longer chant: ah-lum-bar-dee-dum · ah-lum-baa-dee-dum. no need to make an actual sound. let it be busy.
Simpler
Nothing much is intruding any more. Let it thin out — there is no point crowding a mind that has already gone quiet.

Keep going down and you reach the end of it: If the sound slips away and no thoughts come in behind it, let it go. Drift in the quiet blankness of your consciousness. That is the whole aim — the mantra is scaffolding, and you take scaffolding down when the building stands up. Arrow keys work too, if you have a keyboard to hand.

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